Dont just survive, thrive!

Hi I'm Doug and welcome to my place on the web/net. I'm a survivor of ritual satanic abuse (SRA) and MKUltra experimentation from the early 1960s and after. I was born at St George Hospital in Kogarah a southern suburb in Sydney, NSW, Australia which was connected to Sydney University and their hypnosis centre at the time. I have gone through extreme trauma and like other survivors still suffer the consequences of it. Like other survivors my records have been destroyed by hospitals, the police and so on.

I have gone to the NSW and Federal police with allegations about my fathers criminal past including more than half a dozen murders, more attempted murders, rapes, pedophilia, bashings and just like other survivors was never offered any help or support services, was ridiculed, undermined and made out I was delusional. I also tried to get my past out through media outlets but again was typically stonewalled even by investigative journalists.

Lawyers also advised me not to mention RSA to the police as they said I would be laughed at. And so like other survivors, I push on, even when those in positions of authority who should help us, don't. I have lived through the horror of extreme abuse and wish it on no other, especially innocent children. And yet every week I see evidences of it still continuing under the watchful eye of the corrupt obsoletes in power. They are compromised and ruled by blackmailers, just as we have seen with Epstein in America.

What is MKUltra? MKUltra is the Government (CIA) weaponisation of occult practices against the population (think mind control, TV programming etc). It followed Operation Matchbox and Operation Paperclip, two western Intelligence operations at the end of the second world war (1940s) to get Hitlers Nazi criminal doctors who did heinous occult experiments and bring them to the west (including Australia) in order to continue those experiments, eventually under the auspices of the CIA, ASIO etc.

The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men (and women) to do nothing. John Stuart Mill.

On this site my aim is to provide research to back up these claims that are already well documented. I am adding my pieces to the puzzle to give more of a picture of what I like others experienced in Sydney, Australia. Also there are resources to help other survivors get answers and healing of their pasts. I am one of many sites springing up discussing this. Many are survivors of SRA and MKUltra. This site is also to raise awareness of an evil that has infiltrated society and continues to affect too many around us. We still see women and children in particular being abused and trafficked today and this isn't going to stop till we get the courage to stand up en masse and say NO MORE. This has to stop if as a society and a race we want to move forward.

It only takes a grain of rice to tip the scales - Confucious

Every voice and action we can add counts. Is there a cost to speaking up - yes, I (and other whistleblower survivors) know that personally and have had threats on my life, attacks on my financial well being, attacks on my business, on my animals, websites attacked, twitter account cancelled, phones tapped, photographed, followed, repeatedly poisoned and so on. I have lost family, friends and associates and been ridiculed and mocked. But in the process I have met other survivors who understand my past and my pain, have become wonderful friends and together we are forming a formidable force that will not be silenced.

The cost of not speaking up is the continuation of unimaginable evil that too many of us have experienced and witnessed and wish on no one else. So we need to be courageous, we need to be strong and together we have the power to overcome.

Eternal vigilance is the price of liberty. Thomas Jefferson.

As humans we need to never rest, and always believe and act in the preservation of our species.

Here is an overview over the site structure;.

The sections as linked above are summarised as follows;

Ongoing blog posts - here will be articles written by myself on a variety of topics related to RSA, MKUltra etc.
A history of RSA and MKUltra. Designed to give you an overview. This will be a history of the intelligence agencies, cults etc predominantly in the last century so as to create a picture so people can see how our governments and organisations have been infiltrated and controlled by these criminals.
Healing from RSA and MKUltra. Modalities that I have found helpful to navigate my way through the trauma of my past.
Survivor Resources - this includes links to the many other survivors stories, books references and so on.
Researching your past. Its important as survivors we research our pasts. The greater the body of research, the more collectively we can bring these anti human practices to light. For me researching my past has also helped bring me a lot of clarity and a lot of healing.
Typical Cult behaviour and how they operate. How to recognising their patterns of behaviour in our pasts, our families and those we may know. Knowledge is power.
Undoing Programming. Most of us who were abused were programmed not to remember, to self harm or kill ourselves and so on. The programming is imperfect and does break down with time, but we can help.
Dealing with Authorities and how they operate to silence whistleblowers and those who speak out. That they do this seriously incriminates them.
My story. This is what I remember going through, how I got through it and what I learnt from it. Whilst many of our stories are dark the light is far brighter. That we live to tell our stories is a triumph in itself.
Contact.

Site structure

Researching your past

When my memories first started coming back it was hard to place them and I thought where does all this come from. With time and research I was able to place dates, places and people to my history and so validate the memories that were coming through. It took time and I found to do a bit and then take a break and ponder through what I had done and learnt and then do some more and so on worked really well. I kept notes and records including hard copies on paper.

Some of the ways I researched to build a solid body of facts that back up my memories were as follows. Also see the history section as I will be posting research as it comes to hand;

1. Memories; Trust yourself!. Write down your memories, no matter how strange or out there they seem, in word or art. With time and research often they come to make sense. That's been my experience. In the beginning some of my memories were like 'What?!' And now they are 'aaagh,' now that makes sense, I see where that fits in. With time as you do this and when you are ready, more memories will come.

2. Family documents - get a copy of as many of these as possible, especially those with family, friends and associates in them. I found in researching my past it was the company they kept that gave me the connections to the intelligence agencies, the government, corrupt officials, criminals and so on. I was able to take these names, organisations and places and research news stories about them and sure enough followed a trail that validated what I had remembered.

3. Family stories - Write down what you've been told and file this but don't take it as fact unless you are sure and have it backed up by multiple sources. My mother would tell me all sorts of lies about my past to confuse me, gaslight me to make me question myself and throw me off track and also attack me. The more I researched the more her lies became evident. My brother told me a huge pile of his memories of his abuse and then 2 weeks later came and told me he had made it up. I knew he hadn't and all his memories validated mine, so I kept a record of them.

4. Geneology There are extensive resources online as well as Genealogy sections in most libraries. There are also a lot of books to guide you through. One that I have found very helpful is as follows;

Scottish Genealogy (4th edition) by Bruce Durie. Even if you are not Scottish it explains a lot about researching, types of DNA tests etc.

5. DNA tests - I got my family DNA tests for Christmas one year. It uncovered a lot of surprises and brought into question a lot of what I had been told. A significant amount of people find their family may not be the relations they thought or were told they were.

Also keep in mind cult families bloodlines are very important and the bloodline members are above the non bloodline members. There are also significant obvious genealogical traits with ritual abuse survivors of bloodlines including heterochromia, and so on. Incest within cult families is also predominant and can result in genetic deformities such as cleft palates, club feet, Habsburg jaw and so on. Many of us have interesting healing abilities as well as pronounced psychic abilities.

6. Location History; Read about the areas where you grew up, what happened in those areas by whom and at what time. This gives valuable clues. Also research the local institutions you attended including schools, colleges, clubs, hospitals and so on. Do any of them have books about their history? What about politics in the area at that time, who was in power and what decisions were made? Was there cult activity in the area? masonic? did children go missing, murders etc. All this provides pieces to the puzzle.

7. Listen to other survivors stories. This was of huge benefit to me as I saw very distinct patterns between what I and other survivors had gone through across the world. They use the same playbook. Often as Id be listening to other survivors testimonies I'd be thinking "I went through that", or "they did that to me" and so on. Also I noticed there were definite patterns in how we as survivors were treated by authorities and how they refused to act, tried to undermine us and also tried to incarcerate us.

8. Research the cult/intelligence agency/political practices. This for me was incredibly helpful and in the page on resources I have listed numerous books I have read with a precis on each. These were invaluable and I was able to rely on other peoples research to empower my own.

Have a look at the resource page for lists of websites, books, movies and survivor stories

Podcasts - Many podcasters are now talking about and interviewing people about MKUltra as follows

Joe Rogan on MKUltra -

Phillion on MKUltra -

DNA tests. Fingerprinting was first used in forensic science in 1986.

"Ancestry" was founded in 1996 by 2 Americans.

"MyHeritage" was founded in 2003 by Israeli.

With different DNA tests

In looking at cult history there are Countries where cults are stronger such as Italy (incorporated with the Mafia), Germany, Scotland, Ireland and England.

Australian research resources;

Most libraries have local history sections and genealogy sections.

Trove - News articles dating before 1955.

Australian National Archives based in Canberra

Australian National Library based in Canberra.

State Library of NSW based in Sydney

Local Library - Kogarah Like most local libraries has a local history section

Kogarah Local Historical Society - typical of most areas

Masonic Lodges often have books on their histories.

Of note.

At the end of the second world war America, Australia, Canada and the UK took in most of Germany's occult scientists who had done horrific experiments on the Romano Gypsies and the Jews. They wanted their expertise and research. This was called Operation Paperclip and well worth educating yourself over. Some of these scientists were given prominent positions in the United States Central Intelligence Agency (CIA) and one Werner von Braun even headed up National Aeronautics and Space Administration (NASA). This NAZI culture of evil then pervaded these organisations and allegedly they attracted birds of a feather like the Italian Mafia and became bedfellows. This resulted in many Government Organisations becoming criminal enterprises where the CIA became involved in human trafficking, drug running and the like. There are numerous books on this. There are also allegations that the Illuminati were behind these new organisations and were a front group for them. They were also fascinated with hypnosis and mind control and under the excuse of "National Security" became experts in it at a time that Television was making its introduction to Society. As a little child the experiments these people and others did on me (and others) in Kogarah, Sydney as a way to program the masses through TV I still feel to this day. This program went by the name of MK Ultra.

The CIA brought MKUltra again to Sydney Australia in 1960. It was very involved at the time with the Psychology Department of Sydney University. Australian Sydney University Psychology student Psychologist Peter Sheehan worked with Martin Orne of the CIA and then Sheehan went back with Orne to the USA where he spent almost a decade doing further mind control research. Sheehan later came back to Australia and took on significant positions of influence including unsurprisingly the chief censor for Australian Television. Other students and staff at the Sydney University School of Psychology have been named by a litany of survivors (with corroborated stories/experiences) as their handlers, as occultists and as perpetrators of horrific child abuse.

Sydney University during the period of early to late 60s was connected to St George Public Hospital in Kogarah, Sydney during which time myself and other survivors of ritual abuse were born (including Fiona Barnett). St George Hospital in Kogarah was near Sydney International (Kingsford Smith) Airport which is significant as the CIA is one of the covert owners of airlines and aircraft. The NSW Government also made St George Hospital the hospital responsible for any aircraft emergency at the airport.

Kogarah is also in between the city of Sydney and Lucas Heights Nuclear Reactor (opened in 1958) and Holsworthy Army Base (established in the 1880s), both locations named by different survivors as locations where they experienced cult and ritualistic abuse at the hands of Intelligence Agencies.

What becomes apparent as one starts to research MKUltra in Sydney, Australia (and around the world) is that in the 1950s there was a massive transfer of power from Government and professional institutions to intelligence agencies, especially the CIA and ASIO. In Australia in the late 1950s a new law was brought in to restrict the age of doctors on Hospital Boards so this allowed the powers that be to retire many board members and replace with candidates of their own choosing. This also happened at St George Hospital in Kogarah.

The MKUltra and CIA activities however wern't restricted to Sydney and soon were being extended to other universities including Australian National University in Canberra (ANU) where Aldous Huxley's relative Leonard Huxley became vice Chancellor. Macquarie University, the University of Queensland and the University of Western Australia have all been alleged as institutions of interest with regards the CIA and MKUltra.