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Researching your past

When my memories first started coming back it was hard to place them and I thought where does all this come from. With time and research I was able to place dates, places and people to my history and so validate the memories that were coming through. It took time and I found to do a bit and then take a break and ponder through what I had done and learnt and then do some more and so on worked really well. I kept notes and records including hard copies on paper.

Some of the ways I researched to build a solid body of facts that back up my memories were as follows. Also see the history section as I will be posting research as it comes to hand;

1. Memories; Trust yourself!. Write down your memories, no matter how strange or out there they seem, in word or art. With time and research often they come to make sense. That's been my experience. In the beginning some of my memories were like 'What?!' And now they are 'aaagh,' now that makes sense, I see where that fits in. With time as you do this and when you are ready, more memories will come.

2. Family documents - get a copy of as many of these as possible, especially those with family, friends and associates in them. I found in researching my past it was the company they kept that gave me the connections to the intelligence agencies, the government, corrupt officials, criminals and so on. I was able to take these names, organisations and places and research news stories about them and sure enough followed a trail that validated what I had remembered.

3. Family stories - Write down what you've been told and file this but don't take it as fact unless you are sure and have it backed up by multiple sources. My mother would tell me all sorts of lies about my past to confuse me, gaslight me to make me question myself and throw me off track and also attack me. The more I researched the more her lies became evident. My brother told me a huge pile of his memories of his abuse and then 2 weeks later came and told me he had made it up. I knew he hadn't and all his memories validated mine, so I kept a record of them.

4. Geneology There are extensive resources online as well as Genealogy sections in most libraries. There are also a lot of books to guide you through. One that I have found very helpful is as follows;

Scottish Genealogy (4th edition) by Bruce Durie. Even if you are not Scottish it explains a lot about researching, types of DNA tests etc.

5. DNA tests - I got my family DNA tests for Christmas one year. It uncovered a lot of surprises and brought into question a lot of what I had been told. A significant amount of people find their family may not be the relations they thought or were told they were.

Also keep in mind cult families bloodlines are very important and the bloodline members are above the non bloodline members. There are also significant obvious genealogical traits with ritual abuse survivors of bloodlines including heterochromia, and so on. Incest within cult families is also predominant and can result in genetic deformities such as cleft palates, club feet, Habsburg jaw and so on. Many of us have interesting healing abilities as well as pronounced psychic abilities.

6. Location History; Read about the areas where you grew up, what happened in those areas by whom and at what time. This gives valuable clues. Also research the local institutions you attended including schools, colleges, clubs, hospitals and so on. Do any of them have books about their history? What about politics in the area at that time, who was in power and what decisions were made? Was there cult activity in the area? masonic? did children go missing, murders etc. All this provides pieces to the puzzle.

7. Listen to other survivors stories. This was of huge benefit to me as I saw very distinct patterns between what I and other survivors had gone through across the world. They use the same playbook. Often as Id be listening to other survivors testimonies I'd be thinking "I went through that", or "they did that to me" and so on. Also I noticed there were definite patterns in how we as survivors were treated by authorities and how they refused to act, tried to undermine us and also tried to incarcerate us.

8. Research the cult/intelligence agency/political practices. This for me was incredibly helpful and in the page on resources I have listed numerous books I have read with a precis on each. These were invaluable and I was able to rely on other peoples research to empower my own.

Have a look at the resource page for lists of websites, books, movies and survivor stories

Podcasts - Many podcasters are now talking about and interviewing people about MKUltra as follows

Joe Rogan on MKUltra -

Phillion on MKUltra -

DNA tests. Fingerprinting was first used in forensic science in 1986.

"Ancestry" was founded in 1996 by 2 Americans.

"MyHeritage" was founded in 2003 by Israeli.

With different DNA tests

In looking at cult history there are Countries where cults are stronger such as Italy (incorporated with the Mafia), Germany, Scotland, Ireland and England.

A youtube channel comparing DNA tests

Australian research resources;

Most libraries have local history sections and genealogy sections.

Trove - News articles dating before 1955.

Australian National Archives based in Canberra

Australian National Library based in Canberra.

State Library of NSW based in Sydney

Local Library - Kogarah Like most local libraries has a local history section

Kogarah Local Historical Society - typical of most areas

Masonic Lodges often have books on their histories.

Of note.

At the end of the second world war America, Australia, Canada and the UK took in most of Germany's occult scientists who had done horrific experiments on the Romano Gypsies and the Jews. They wanted their expertise and research. This was called Operation Paperclip and well worth educating yourself over. Some of these scientists were given prominent positions in the United States Central Intelligence Agency (CIA) and one Werner von Braun even headed up National Aeronautics and Space Administration (NASA). This NAZI culture of evil then pervaded these organisations and allegedly they attracted birds of a feather like the Italian Mafia and became bedfellows. This resulted in many Government Organisations becoming criminal enterprises where the CIA became involved in human trafficking, drug running and the like. There are numerous books on this. There are also allegations that the Illuminati were behind these new organisations and were a front group for them. They were also fascinated with hypnosis and mind control and under the excuse of "National Security" became experts in it at a time that Television was making its introduction to Society. As a little child the experiments these people and others did on me (and others) in Kogarah, Sydney as a way to program the masses through TV I still feel to this day. This program went by the name of MK Ultra.

The CIA brought MKUltra again to Sydney Australia in 1960. It was very involved at the time with the Psychology Department of Sydney University. Australian Sydney University Psychology student Psychologist Peter Sheehan worked with Martin Orne of the CIA and then Sheehan went back with Orne to the USA where he spent almost a decade doing further mind control research. Sheehan later came back to Australia and took on significant positions of influence including unsurprisingly the chief censor for Australian Television. Other students and staff at the Sydney University School of Psychology have been named by a litany of survivors (with corroborated stories/experiences) as their handlers, as occultists and as perpetrators of horrific child abuse.

Sydney University during the period of early to late 60s was connected to St George Public Hospital in Kogarah, Sydney during which time myself and other survivors of ritual abuse were born (including Fiona Barnett). St George Hospital in Kogarah was near Sydney International (Kingsford Smith) Airport which is significant as the CIA is one of the covert owners of airlines and aircraft. The NSW Government also made St George Hospital the hospital responsible for any aircraft emergency at the airport.

Kogarah is also in between the city of Sydney and Lucas Heights Nuclear Reactor (opened in 1958) and Holsworthy Army Base (established in the 1880s), both locations named by different survivors as locations where they experienced cult and ritualistic abuse at the hands of Intelligence Agencies.

What becomes apparent as one starts to research MKUltra in Sydney, Australia (and around the world) is that in the 1950s there was a massive transfer of power from Government and professional institutions to intelligence agencies, especially the CIA and ASIO. In Australia in the late 1950s a new law was brought in to restrict the age of doctors on Hospital Boards so this allowed the powers that be to retire many board members and replace with candidates of their own choosing. This also happened at St George Hospital in Kogarah.

The MKUltra and CIA activities however wern't restricted to Sydney and soon were being extended to other universities including Australian National University in Canberra (ANU) where Aldous Huxley's relative Leonard Huxley became vice Chancellor. Macquarie University, the University of Queensland and the University of Western Australia have all been alleged as institutions of interest with regards the CIA and MKUltra.